First of all, Ramadan Kareem to all my followers who celebrate this month of fasting and spiritual reflection. May Allah bless you and accept from you. I meant to write this yesterday but I forgot, typical of me (heehee).
Today was my first ever fast for Ramadan. I have fasted before but only for around 11 hours. Today I had to do 17, which grew increasingly more difficult at the 12 hour mark. I felt so hungry and my lack of caffeine surely took its toll on my head, a headache from withdraw ( I forgot to make some AND eat before the fast began, silly me).
But now that I can now eat and drink, I started to reflect. Here are my thoughts in order that I had them:
I only fasted for around 18 hours (because I didn’t eat before). As I broke my fast with water and ran into the kitchen to grab some pizza my family saved for me, I started to think at least I even have food to look forward to at the end of the fast. I felt selfish, that I complained for such a small amount of time compared to others have to go hungry for days. I realized I was taking my clean water access for granted too, I have clean water and instead I trade it for pop which does no benefits. The thirst was more overwhelming than my hunger. This led me to tears as I soon realized what I have and what others do not. Not only what I had, but how I was taking it for granted.
Mind Over Matter
God has gave us this body with animal instincts, but a mind strong enough to overcome them. As my hunger grew, so did my willpower. I WAS going to make it my first day. I AM going to do this. Other animals have to react to their body’s needs but we do not. Isn’t that beautiful? Our minds are really so strong, and thanks to God I have learned that through this.
To sum up this post, all I have to say is shukran Allah. ♥
You all will be in my prayers.